Thats good!

Alright, we are getting on track!! Which is good!!!

I love my darling Eugene. =]

221108.
The day we got together.

Filled every single of our days with sweet texts and conversations.


220109.
started quarrelling.
He complains that I'm very insensitive and impatient.


220209.
Quarrelled even more often.
Complains that I'm trying to control his life by not letting him to meet his friends.
He told me that he doesn't wants to disappoint his 8 years friendship. ( so, i was okay with it)
Then i had an appointment with him earlier on, he suddenly (the day before we were supposed to meet) told me that hes going to his 4 days old colleague's birthday celebration.
SPEECHLESS! fine, so i acted like i was okay with it.
Waiting for him at home, we agreed on 10pm. text him at 930. he told me hes going to haagen daz later and doesnt know what time he will end. WHAT THE HELLL.
I told him about our agreement, he said that im controlling him again, and he cant stand it anymore.
1130 he came. i asked him does his 'cant stand it anymore' means break up. he said no of course!
I told him what is my ideal relationship should be like, he said he will try to meet up to my expectations. I didnt pursue any furthur.
Bought a 500 pieces and 1000 pieces jigsaw puzzle to his house.VERY FUN!



mummy wishes us the best. but at the same time she gave me an advice.
He haven't start uni yet, maybe when his uni starts, temptaions will be lurking everywhere and plus he will have loads of assignments to do thus you guys will meet up less often. no matter how long will you guys be together for, you must be able to let go if he wants to. be cool about it and get on with your life. I'm sure there are alot of better choices other than him. I'm sure you can find someone else who care for you more than he does.


Wish us the best yeah?

Richard Chua

He doesn't likes to do pedicure for me. However, he did it anyway.=]



THANK YOU AH!

Alright, the chalet was really fun. The karaoke session was nice as well. the gatherings or so not called gatherings were gorgeous fun. See, it feels good to be young still.

Well, for Jinfeng's birthday, I made a chocolate mousse cake for him. Oh my, its my first attempt doing chocolate mousse. And it turned out to be quite good, quite smooth, no lumps. So who wants to order cake, please leave your contact down. Ha.

Yesterday I was doing the scones mixture, and somehow or rather, it got overmixed and my pastry chef screwed the cooks up. Oh well, I'm sorry.

Do you know that Juvena's back is always aching when she wake up every morning and she couldn't stand properly because of all the hard skins that had formed on her soles. So, birthday around the corner. Just any luxurious spa and pedicure treatments will be good enough for her.

To think that someone will actually pick up my phone and return me is really naive. However, he really gave it back to me. Oh my! Most kindful award 2007 shall go to him. *applause please.


Anyway, chalet is on the 17th! Haha! I am so excited for a chalet for the first time! I can't wait to play with my friends. Jin Feng's birthday is just around the corner, what shall I give him?

doubts about them

Sometimes I really wonder when will I really achieve success in life. There are so many doubts in my mind which made me think back of my past. And I get so emotional over them.

I really really really wonder when, you know?
I want to make a fortune, I want make my parents proud of me, I want to be a chef, perhaps the best one. I want to be a chef at the age of 21. But my laziness is failing me. I can't bare to make any sacrifices for my dream.

Sometimes I try to stay back after my shift, so that I can learn more things, but my brain kept telling me:" Juvena, you are tired, go back and sleep." For the first day, I will be like, its okay, tomorrow then I shall stay. But day after day, my mind is still having the same thoughts. I hate it! I want to make myself very determined, I want to excel.

I always feel that nobody actually really understand how I feel. I also don't really know whats going on in me. I felt that I've been having moodswings lately. When I think back about that, I felt really bad for throwing my tantrums on them.

I need to find a way out of this so so so terrible and miserable feeling.
I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS.

WHATS UP!

Hey people. I miss all who misses me.

I suddenly realise that my world revolves around Oriental, home and boyfriend.

I'm lacking of friends involvement-ship.